Having fun in 50mm

You know how it is, you're looking at somebody else's photograph and you're wondering how the hell they took it. Not that gear makes a shred of difference with regards to artistic talent, but, from a technical stand point, the depth of field is spot on and complementary, the creaminess of the bokeh is so nice. So what lens? What aperture? Doesn't take long before you conclude that it's a 1.4 prime of course, one that you don't have. Ok, now lets see how much I can get one for. Between one and two thousand dollars! Ok sure, why not...but wait. Maybe before I get this 35mm 1.4, I must ask myself is it really going to be worth the money. Of course it is, but still, I better not. Then I remember I have an old 50mm 1.4. Haven't used it in forever because I've been a fool. Lets give it a spin and see what happens. The conclusion....hell yeah, this is a mighty sweet piece of glass.

Mat Lo Photography Cat and Pie 2
Mat Lo Photography Pie

Creation is inexorable.

Love of beauty is taste. The creation of beauty is art.
— Ralph Waldo Emerson

It suddenly dawned on me, I hadn't really been trying. The mindset had a narrative along the lines of; it can wait, it's too hard, society requires me to pay bills so I can't do what I really want to do, and, I'm not really bothered if I get this gig or not.

When you find yourself without any other means of income, an audition suddenly becomes really important. That photo you take now has to be that much more desirable and the music you write could be the reason you have food on the table in a few months.

And so for the first time ever, I gave it my everything in that audition room today. Left the old me behind, the kid that wouldn't cheer at a football game, and I said hello to the new, all singing, all dancing, give it everything you've got guy that I'd never before needed to be.

Making my way home and considering that time is now a precious commodity, every moment an opportunity to improve, I couldn't waste it. If there's a bus to be waited for, there's a moment to be seized.

Here's what I captured: