It suddenly dawned on me, I hadn't really been trying. The mindset had a narrative along the lines of; it can wait, it's too hard, society requires me to pay bills so I can't do what I really want to do, and, I'm not really bothered if I get this gig or not.
When you find yourself without any other means of income, an audition suddenly becomes really important. That photo you take now has to be that much more desirable and the music you write could be the reason you have food on the table in a few months.
And so for the first time ever, I gave it my everything in that audition room today. Left the old me behind, the kid that wouldn't cheer at a football game, and I said hello to the new, all singing, all dancing, give it everything you've got guy that I'd never before needed to be.
Making my way home and considering that time is now a precious commodity, every moment an opportunity to improve, I couldn't waste it. If there's a bus to be waited for, there's a moment to be seized.
Here's what I captured: